The Sound of Silence

Hello Dear Reader,


Thank you to everyone who have left kind messages, it truly makes my heart sing. 

This last week has passed by in a blur of hospital visits, seeing faces of family, driving in silence, feeling numb, quiet tears, flowers arriving, long and short phone calls, compassionate, soothing voices and being at home keeping my self occupied with the humdrum of housework.

We were running late that day, the day of her passing, a hundred tiny things made us later than usual, I keep thinking if only we didn't do this or do that, we would have been there. She couldn't wait any longer and went peacefully without us. Although, she was not alone, I feel like we let her down. She had been surrounded by loving family all week and was awake until Sunday, really quite at ease and happy to see her family, joining in on conversations along the way. She wanted to go and we all understood why.

In retrospect we were lucky to have had that time with her, there were lots of tears, of course, but there were many memories, relived, that bought us joy and some solace.

We are in the midst of preparing for her funeral and I hope it is the last one I have to be part of for a long time. Thank heavens for our little family, Lovely hubby is stoic but soft and kind, our adult children seem to be coping and have been amazing help at the same time. Our daughter instinctively knows what to do and just jumps in and does it and our son cooked dinner for us last night, easing our burden of the everyday. We will be okay, together, we will be okay.


10 comments

  1. Dear Fiona, I am sorry to hear of the loss of your mother-in-law. May she rest in peace. Take care and be strengthened by the love of your wonderful family. Big hugs, Kelly

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  2. Hi Fiona, Just letting you know that I have been thinking of you and your family this week. Don't be too hard on yourself, I'm sure your Mother in law would never have thought that you let her down. Sending hugs to you to help you get through this sad time. xx

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  3. Hi Fiona, have been thinking of you this past week and will continue to do so. Take solace with your family and remember the good times you had with your mother in law. Sending hugs.

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  4. I've been thinking of you all on and off all week. Please don't berate yourself for not being there, it's being there for people in life, not death that counts, and you were there for her, more than most people can lay claim to of their near and dear. Your care, love and attention gave her longer with you all. Many hugs, our thoughts are with you.

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  5. Sad...so very sad:( My thoughts are with you...and I pray that you will find comfort amidst the sorrow that you and your family are going through right now...Hugs.

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  6. Much love to you all, Fiona. As the days pass by now, I hope those happy memories will bring you much solace. Don't be too hard on yourself, she would've known you loved her so and that you all supported her in life and in those last days too. Take Care. Meg Xxx

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  7. My thoughts are with you, your husband, son and daughter in your sad loss of a special lady. Remember the times you shared together. Lots of hugs, Judith (of Western Australia)

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  8. Dear Fiona, My heart and thoughts go out to you. The best piece of advice I ever heard when being bereaved was "be kind to yourself". You were always there for her in life. I was often told by Professionals that a person feels the freedom to pass on when family is not around, and that our loved ones often feel restricted when surrounded by others.So take heart Fiona, take care of yourself, and cherish your family and the memories you have. Regards Robyne - S.A

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  9. Let time pass. Over time the whirl of thoughts will organise themselves into treasured memories.

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  10. It takes time to process what has happened. One thing you can be certain about is that your Mother in Law was well loved. Take care.

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